Since I was a little kid I considered myself a timid person. I always hide my true self behind a shell of silence and awkwardness.
It's not easy to be a timid person, I believe is harder to be timid than bold. Being timid is constant hard work failing to block your original personality to show a silent and “perfect” being.
Yes I said perfect because that’s why timid people are timid. We are so scared to be criticized that we shrink ourselves believing that we will be able to fool people into not seeing beyond our shell.
That’s where photography comes into play for me, because I found a way to be me and say what I want to say without risking of being me. The tricky part was that the result was the opposite, the more I shoot the more I have to take the risk to show you how I see my world and what is important to myself.
This risk taking issue has affected me, because I have to live this double life where I hide myself and show myself at the same time. Today I decided to open myself, leave my shell behind and take the commitment of being me from now on.
I decide to turn away from perfectionism and anxiety, leave all the BS and start enjoying all this process.
We will see how this decision will affect the way I see and capture the world.
Carlos